Update

This is from my vaca in NY with my niece Cassidy and nephew Jasper.

I have a callback audition today and I am nervous as hell...it's my first since a year ago. I hope I am prepared enough.

Listless

I'm feeling nervous and listless...if that's possible. I have an audition coming up on March 17th for a play I did in college over 23 years ago, called THE MARRIAGE OF BETTE & BOO. I've been on a self-proclaimed hiatus for over 2 years, so I'm filled with anxiety. I'm preparing a monologue and a piece from the play. Do I still have it? Whatever it is. I know that I am on the cusp of neurosis. I should just do it for myself and not fret over the outcome...I have no control over that.

Artist Trading Cards

Hey check out my artist trading cards!

Artist Trading Cards

Artist Trading Cards

Artist Trading Cards

Art

Artist Trading Cards

I am looking for people who would like to participate in a swap for artist trading cards. Each one must be 2 1/2 by
3 1/2 inches and can be in any
medium. If you're interested please send you're cards to:

E. Hipwell
6408 North Glenwood Avenue
Chicago, IL 60626

Thanks!

Art

I am finished with my clothing installation piece for Katie's thesis in May...now, what do I do? I'm thinking I would love to make a book...altered maybe? Also, Joanne wants me to paint again...How fortunate am I to have so many options!! I love making art and I am not deterred if it's not always understood...it fills my soul!

Talking with the Ex

Spoke with my ex-fiance today... This working on being friends is very new to me. I just let the relationships die completely in the past. I guess this one was special. He was the nicest significant other I ever had. Illness got in the way, so I want to keep the friendship. There is part of me that thinks that this is harmful in some way... I'll get over that, though.

New project

I am about to embark on a new project.
What is it?
ME!
I am in the throws of gettingf qualified to get gastric bypass surgery. I'm scared and excited at the same time. I'm sick of being overweight and the stigma attached to it. It messes with my professional life and my intimate life. Not easy, either one, with several pounds attached. I'm not saying big isn't beautiful at all. For me it causes heavy breathing, hurt knees, constant exhaustion and a limitation as to casting for acting, and it exacerbates my depression---all good reasons in my book.
You see, there is this person inside who I know is dying to get out and be seen and heard. Right now it is as if I am invisible---some people cannot see past the pounds.
It's not only others, though. I cannot see past my weight either. I know that along with the weightloss I also have alot of indepth emotional work to do as well.
Well, wish me luck in this new endeavor!!